September 3, 2001
Thoughts before Bed with Jill
Thinking about Ryan.
I miss him.
Does he miss me? Or is the male-callusness really so emotion encompassing that I cannot hope to move his heart?
Who am I kidding. Boys don't have hearts. At least not ones I could translate.
Sorry to my homie who also happens to be male, Mach. You can have a heart. If you really want one.
I know I'm strong enough for long distance. But is he?
Is this too much distance?
I don't think there can ever be too much. Not for me. Not for the way I feel.
Okay, I'll be passing out vomit bags next entry.
astera at night